I've always hated rollercoaster but especially when it comes to my weight. At one point in my life tho I forgot about me and totally focused on my daughter and then husband. She was a newborn baby and he almost died in a car accident so I didn't have time to worry about me. My weight went up and down and after a few years when things were getting worse in the marriage and my daughter was being cared for by my mom, I got on the scale and almost ended my life that night. I had reached a weight I never thought would be possible and that night said "that's it, I either lose weight or end my life." Well obviously I chose the lose weight road and set a goal weight without any specific times or special diets just that I was going to lose weight even if it meant starve myself. Part of my weight loss also meant that things had to change not just for me but for my daughter and her dad, that is when the other big change came and it was to file for a divorce and get him out of my life as much as possible. He is under care of professionals now and I don't have spend my time worrying about him anymore. That was a plus for awhile until I started getting bored because I didn't have anything to do now, my daughter relys on her grandmother and aunt so she didn't seem to need me...so what was I to do now to keep losing weight. I started some different exercising programs but then my back went out and I ended up in the hospital so exercising didn't seem right at least not until my back healed up a bit. I was on my own just looking for things to do to keep me away from food, to do some kind of work to stay in somewhat ok shape and not go insane. It has been as challenge and at times I was ready to give up and just forget all that I had lost and eat what I wanted and not care what I weighed or just end my life, as some say "the easy way out". Self-injury is easy but total ending wasn't, I chickened out and started playing bridge to keep my mind occupied and when I found a place on line to play I also found some friends who for some reason actually cared and helped me through some of really low times I've had in the past few years. I decided it was time to start exercising more than just my hands at that computer and got online looking for some ideas and found the global fitness program. I started reading about it and the positive motivations as well as Dr. Franks writings and looked into his solutions as well....being on a fixed income I decided to try and see if these 2 would really do any good.